My rock, where I sunbathe.

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Picture of Eeyore The old grey donkey, Eeyore stood by himself in a thistly corner of the Forest, his front feet well apart, his head on one side, and thought about things. Sometimes he thought sadly to himself, "Why?" and sometimes he thought, "Wherefore?" and sometimes he thought, "Inasmuch as which?" and sometimes he didn't quite know what he was thinking about.

from "The Pooh Book of Quotations" by A. A. Milne.


Introduction

Poems

My poems

Others' poems

Prose

Stories

Links

Contact and guestbook



Introduction

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"I chose a bittersweet happiness over a grey and uneventful life. And I have no regrets. For if we did not have hurt, it would not be better. It would be worse. Because then there would be no happiness, either. And no room for hope.."
- "Stalker", Andrei Tarkovsky

This page is dedicated to a particular mood. The one where you're depressed and enjoying it, in a perverse way, whether it's the attention being lavished on you by everyone around or the thoughts buzzing around in your own head - there's nothing quite like a good wallow in your own self-pity. So. Browse around, leave a comment in the guestbook - a good, healthy dose of someone else's attention always goes down well..

I'm going to keep these pages plain - neat, minimally formatted text, a bare minimum of graphics, fast loading and easy to read. Updates will be slow - I only write when I'm depressed, and I'm not looking to be depressed for a good while; and I rarely take material from others. I might even consider putting some happy things up here. They'll be Eeyore-happy things, though; because no silver lining comes without its cloud.



My poems

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Bubbles No comment.. ^^;;; don't ever drink, people. Just don't.

Butterfly This was written as a response to one of the poems on a Christian friend's page. Sometimes things just need a reply..

Diary A drunken rant; but hey, we all get weeks like that... There's no rhyme, but there is a beat. Or there should be. Give me a break; I was drunk.. ^^;;

Dream I had a little too much dogma shoved at me that day... /sigh/

Emptiness "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.." A poem about a friend that I see a lot of myself in sometimes.

Hiding "A peaceful night to you. Yet where is peace? It is not for you - peace; you will find none.." - "An Ordinary Miracle", Eugene Schwartz

Life This was written after Sun Kitten emailed me 'Condemned to Flight'..

Memories Sometimes I remember the places where I spent my childhood.. ain't nostalgia wonderful?

Moths Another nostalgia trip..

Prisoner Sun Kitten sent me the second poem of the 'Chains' duo.. it struck a chord, and I had to respond. After I wrote this, I was allowed to see the first one..

Together A question was asked, and an answer was given. One of these years I'll have words enough for what I feel; this will have to do, for now..

Trust There is a limit to how much you can keep inside, and how long you can keep giving, and offering, without taking. Sometimes it is right to accept an offer of help, and to share..

Vampire This is a weird one. I got tired of quoting other people's words in my email signatures, so I thought I'd write something I could quote from. On trying it a few times I decided quoting myself felt way too arrogant, so I went back to quoting other people.. ^^;;

We'll fly together..

After reading Sun Kitten's The Last Griffin I just couldn't let things rest like that..

You This one's for you; you know who you are. If I shut my eyes, I can see you smile as you read this..


Others' Poems

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Poems by the Sun Kitten
Sun Kitten
The Russian for a speck of sunlight translates as "Sun Rabbit" - only the speck in question looks a lot more like a kitten than a rabbit.. Sun Kittens feed on True Light - but this one likes milk a lot too.. sometimes the Sun Kitten even allows itself to be stroked and fussed over. After all - love, too, is True Light..
(misquoted from Sergei Lukjanenko's "Door into Darkness")

Chains A pair of very evocative poems; yet again, I can't escape the thought that I am reading something into them that is completely alien to what Sun Kitten was thinking when they were written.. /sigh/

Condemned
To Flight
I wish I knew what was going through Sun Kitten's mind when these poems were written. But then, one can never know a Sun Kitten's mind..

The Last
Griffin


A beautifully clear feeling..

The Last;
Finale


Sun Kitten decided that my response to The Last Griffin needed a response..

Memory Another glimpse..

Shining Wings I have a habit of reading a lot more into Sun Kitten's poems than Sun Kitten writes into them.
This one strikes a chord every time I read it - maybe one day I'll get this good too..

Singing Wind The Sun Kitten thought that Shining Wings needed a response..


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Poems by 'Dorian Gray'

Unknown Girl
I don't know who you are. I don't know what you've been through. All I know about you is in the poems you've sent. I hope my words helped a little..
Friend

Love

Nobody knows

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Poems by 'Button'

Button
Button's poems hurt. Unpolished and raw, full of bitterness and rage, they take me back to my own schooldays. I shall take the liberty of naming them, as I did that of nicknaming Button herself.
Why..?


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Translations of bardic songs
Guitar music
Sometimes a song or a story strikes me so hard that I have to share it.. whatever language it's in.

Let us cheer
Relatively light for this page; still, I like it, so there.

My darling
Wonderfully bitter.

Dawn
A personal favourite - the guitar music that accompanies this is delicate and haunting..

Descensus Ad Infernos
Hmp. Can't seem to make it scan. English doesn't have enough syllables.. :/ I'll link up the painting this is about at some point, too.

Farewell II
I'll say this here and now: Scherbakov is a genius. The way he loads his language is quite untranslatable; I've tried my best to get the feeling across, but...

Judas'
Monologue


That hits quite hard in unexpected ways.. Bulgakov's "Master and Margarita" is also highly recommended.

Horse-carriage
Another one by Scherbakov. Need I say more?

It is I
This has a really catchy tap-dance beat. Try doing a search for MS06CD07 - you might find a version you can listen to ^-^

Like a fallen angel
Not bardic, strictly speaking; it's by the band "Nautilus Pompilius". I've never actually heard the tune that goes with this; the lyrics, however, are very powerful. If anyone has a recording - please send one my way..

Lullaby
By the same person as Dawn, this too strikes a chord..

A million
red roses

Not bardic, but a good old Russian favourite. The poor guy..


The railroad man
Another Nautilus Pompilius track. I think a few of these might be appearing here - I was given a CD *_*



Stories

Hedgehog
I'm still gathering material for this section, getting permissions, etc - bear with me..

A hundred words I came across a set of rules for some competition or other a while ago, and amongst the limits it imposed was 100 words for a piece of written prose. Obviously a typing error, but it made me wonder how much could be squeezed into a hundred words - and so I came up with this.

The Boy and the Darkness This link is severely out of place on this page. It is extremely presumptious of me to put a translation of someone else's book, especially a book as cool as this, next to all my ****. Never mind, it shan't be here long - I'm due to get toothycat.net up, at which point it will move there and have the separate section it deserves.



Links

Clasped hands
A small assortment of links.. happy, sad; people who've linked to this site - all here..

Angela's bubbles Another poet, who's linked to here. She writes happy things too.. :)

A.S.H. alt.suicide.holiday home pages.

Douglas' humble abode Douglas-senpai is partly responsible for my present tastes in anime. Reputed to be a once-member of a mysterious and secret society during his days at Cambridge University - one that, some say, exists even now, - he favours the simple and the beautiful.

John Allister's Pages John Allister is a Christian poet.. the article archives make for very interesting reading.

Michael Jeggo's poems Mike's poetry prompted a fair few of my own..

No Cure for Cancer Denis Leary: the very best of bitter humour.

Sisters Of Mercy This file contains lyrics to all their songs - they write good poetry.. :)


My rock The black and white artwork on this site is Sun Kitten's. If you wish to contact me about anything on this site - feel free to email s.lewis.97@cantab.net


Oh, and I have a guestbook. Your responses, flames, hate mail - this is the place for it all.